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Sunday, 11 December 2011


I usually hate Christmas. And by usually, I mean, every year I'm either sick, annoyed with my parents because they woke me up too early (seriously) OR, I get annoyed during dinner being yelled at my relatives that only have a look into my life by Facebook from cousins who live in the states. Christmas is my most hated holiday of the year, and December is the worst month (second only to February).
However, it's been a crazy year for everyone in my family. My brother was diagnosed with epilepsy at the start of 2011, after suffering two seizures. Almost a year later, they still haven't solved the problem and he's taking seven pills, twice a day, every day. Not only that, but he started high school - which what should be a great experience, hasn't turned out to be the best.
Both my parents have had struggles with their jobs. My mom took on an Acting AS5 position, which she should have finished in September. Months later, she's still working the same job, except the pay is back to what she was making as an AS4 and she's doing three different jobs. Also, the amount of effort it's taken her to deal with my brother AND be a mom, has worn her down.
My father quit his job, as I mentioned, due to a bunch of things happening over the past year and a half. His (ex)boss Sean, is probably the stupidest man I have ever met - and I haven't been formally introduced, either. For months, he would threaten my father, telling him if he didn't meet certain goals, he'd fire him. My father struggled to keep the store open for as long as he did; trying to make ends meet. It isn't a high business store, yet Sean expected him to rack in the money. This isn't Montreal, this isn't Toronto. This is Ottawa, and it was bullshit. Also, the stress of my brother, myself, and my mom all on him, I'm surprised he's still around. I'm glad he is.
My Aunt was diagnosed with Colon Cancer a couple months ago. I was told last week, she will not make it. She's dying. As you know, one of  my close friends dad passed away two months ago. My Aunt is moving in the new year, which is another reason why this Christmas/New Years is extremely important.
Of course, a lot of stuff has happened with me, and I'm looking forward to just put it all behind and restart from the ground up. I'm going back into Karate in the new year, and I'm going to buckle down and get school done. I'm also changing my diet and hopefully, the things that are going well, will keep going that way.

I work on Christmas, 9-5.
We're doing stockings in the morning before I leave, and presents after dinner. It's new for our family, usually we do it all at once, but I think doing it at night would be easier. I'll be awake and able to enjoy the company. Of course Christmas Eve isn't changing, we'll still do our PJ presents and hot chocolate.
I'm looking forward to snow, and Christmas, and New Years and I just want it all to fall together. I have presents all wrapped and ready to go and I'm just so excited. More so to see everyone else so happy. I don't care much for the presents (although, it is a nice bonus ;))
Hopefully we'll have a white Christmas and I'll be able to have my Winter Wonderland photoshoot I've been craving for all week. I know, me, wanting snow - funny.

Right now, I could care less about anything. As long as my parents and brother are happy, so am I.
It's going to be a good Christmas.

Saturday, 10 December 2011


You know you haven't been on in awhile when you're signed out and don't remember your password. Awkward penguin.

I went to Montreal yesterday, spent the night. Came home around 3pm today. It was a short visit, extremely (which is why I just booked a week off in January to go back), but it was a much needed one. My friends 18th birthday was on Thursday, however, despite previous plans, we just stayed at my hotel for most of the night.
It was absolutely wonderful. I didn't realize how much I missed it, until I was days away from going and I couldn't wait any longer. Being  there made me feel so much better about everything.
I found my mothers Christmas present - one more thing to find and then I'm done!

We went shopping (obviously) and I found yellow low top Converse that I've been wanting for years. $55, couldn't say no. Then we went and saw Happy Feet 2, which is a GREAT movie, so cute. Again, I cried through the whole thing, but it's a cute movie so it's okay.
It was really gross out, just wet and rainy and stuff, so thankfully my hotel had a cute little restaurant built into the side of it. Once back at the hotel, we got changed and ready and went down for drinks and dinner. I don't understand what it is about French people, but I they have HUGE portions of food. Ridiculousness. I had ordered a Poutine, and it was just this massive plate of fries, cheese and gravy. It was delicious, and I really wish I could have finished it, but my stomach is not that big. The old man who was working there made fun of me for it, no big deal.
After dinner, we just went back up and watched TV, ate some more and talked. I hadn't seen my friend in fourish months, so it was really nice to just sit and catch up. Although I'm a little disappointed that I didn't get to stay as long as I had hoped, when I have more money and time, I'll be back. I just needed to go now so I wouldn't explode.

I'm exhausted, beyond comparison and I wish I could just stay in bed. But I have Starbucks plans with an old friend, which I cannot cancel on. Christmas present time! Woot.
I'll let you know if anything new happens :3

Montreal - Night Belvedere - Montreal, Quebec

Tuesday, 29 November 2011

Rainy days.


Montreal <3

HI. I haven't written in awhile, mostly because a bunch of stuff has happened in the past week, but everything's getting better now.
My dad quit his job last week. His boss is an asshole and was treating my dad like shit. I was pretty scared, but my dad seems to have his head in the right place, so all I can really do is sit back and believe he knows what he's doing. He's strong.
Grey Cup was last weekend. No idea who won, I don't really care. But people were over, and it was nice. Got a little high, ate way too much. Always fun.
Now, I'm really excited because, I'm going to Montreal in TEN DAYS. I booked my train ticket today, made sure I still have reservations at the hotel I booked. Now I just need to pack and I'm good to go! I can't wait. It's going to be so much fun.
My friends 18th birthday is the day before I get there, so you know we'll spend the weekend in a club, drunk as fuck. It's going to be great. Do a little shopping, no big deal. My hotel's a street away from St Catherines so you know I'll be spending some money. Going to get my nose pierced, both sides, awyee.

I'm thinking of getting my nape pierced this weekend, although I'm not too sure on it. I want it, I just don't know if I should be spending the money right now.
Payday's on Thursday, so we'll see :D

Anyways, 10 days.
I have to go get ready for work, but I'll be sure to keep you posted!

Monday, 21 November 2011


So, I'm a little late in writing about this but: AHHH.
The NU2 Anime Convention was this past weekend, Nov 18-20th and it was unbelievable! It was overwhelming, and just, wow. I couldn't/didn't take any pictures, mostly because I was incredibly nervous about the whole thing and felt a little awkward going up and asking people for pictures (haha). Also, my cosplay outfit didn't come in, in time, which is fine, because I'll have it for the next one!
It was really nice being able to see that so many other people are into it as well. It was nice, because for once in a long time, I didn't feel out of place or anything. Seeing all these people dressed up as characters they enjoy and cherish, was heart warming.
Although I'm disappointed I wasn't able to participate in the cosplay portion of the convention, it was still wonderful seeing almost everyone dressed up.
I also spent wayyy too much, but it isn't something I regret :3 The one in February is looking well. My friends and I are supposed to be going - I'll be dressed up, and taking pictures for that one. I'm ubber excited.

Also, 19 days until Montreal, YAY.

Monday, 14 November 2011

Omega Park

Yesterday (November 13), my best friend and I took a trip down to Omega Park.
It was absolutely beautiful. The animals were all so precious and I honestly wanted to take them all home with me. It was quite ridiculous. Here's some of the shots I managed to take.

I was amazed by the place, and how it all came together. It was nice to get out of the city, away from all the noise, the people, the drama. I'm happy I went, and can't wait to go again. It was such a lovely place.

Thursday, 3 November 2011


Sixteen days until the convention.
Wig, shoes and outfit ordered and on their way here! So excited. Not only will it be my first convention, it'll be my first time dressing up in Cosplay. I used to think it was kind of funny, and never imagined I'd do it, but there's something nice about dressing up as an Anime character and being a nerd for a day :)
I'm going as Sailor Mars, while my other friends are going as Sailor Moon, Sailor Jupiter and of course Tuxedo Mask. It's going to be an interesting day to say the least, lots of pictures and fun moments. It's real exciting, I almost want it to be tomorrow ;D It's a nice way to detach myself from the real world for a bit, and just focus on what's important and the people who are important. Besides, it'll be nice to be surrounded by people who love Anime just as much as I do.
It's funny that I'm going as Sailor Moon, since I much rather enjoy Pokemon, hands down. But Sailor Moon is one that everyone loves, a common ground, and it's fairly simple, too. It's nice knowing my friends are willing to get dressed up and come out with me. It'll be great.
I'm sick as a dog at the moment, so I'm going to go finish my shows and sleep some.
Have a good night.

Tuesday, 1 November 2011


Pumpkin, edited.

                I went looking for my Photoshop software today, because last night I took some pretty cool pictures that I wanted to mess around with.
However, I can't seem to find it, so I downloaded this low-quality one off the internet, and it actually does a decent job.
I'm obviously not looking for anything too professional at the moment, because I'm still getting used to it, but it's a lot of fun to play with pictures and see what looks good and what works with each other. I'm happy I got the day yesterday to go out and do a bunch of things, take loads of pictures. However, the photo-shoot didn't turn out exactly the way I wanted, but that's okay. It is what it is and you learn to go with the flow.
I'm ubber excited to get some new lenses. Hopefully I can focus on that, once I pay my credit card and my father back, woop. But for now, I'm just admiring the freedom behind taking pictures. It was real nice to be able to get out of the house and walk around. Fall is so pretty, and I'm even excited for some winter shots. Hopefully I'll have some good enough lenses that I can take some action shots.
Life is good.

Monday, 31 October 2011


October 31st, my favorite day of the year.
Halloween, it's the absolute best. And to celebrate today, I'm going on a mini photo-shoot outing with my best friend and then coming home to watch Nightmare Before Christmas, because that movie makes me smile.

This is Halloween,
This is Halloween,
Halloween, Halloween, Halloween, Halloween.

Everyone hail to the Pumpkin Song.

Aren't you scared? Well that's just fine.
Say it once, say it twice, take a chance and roll the dice.
Ride with the moon in the dead of night.
Everybody scream, everybody scream!
In our town of Halloween.

Jack and Sally, forever and always.

Thursday, 27 October 2011

I was here.

My cousin had a baby shower last weekend, and my aunt and I got to talking about my life and what I'm doing and how school is and such. She mentioned how Christmas time was coming up soon, and I should send her a list of all the lenses I would like for my camera.
So today, I started writing a list, because not only does my aunt want one, I need one as well as my father. I forgot how expensive lenses were. I almost feel bad for sending a list to her with the lenses I found interesting. Thankfully the most expensive lens that I would REALLY appreciate having is only around $500, which is actually a great catch for a new lens.
I'm starting to get everything back on track and I feel good. Work has offered me forty hours a week, Tuesdays to Saturdays, full time. Obviously I said yes. One, it'll keep me occupied, two, I need the money for all the places and things that I need, and three, come on, it isn't too bad! It'll take some getting used to, but it'll teach me how to balance my time properly again, since I also have school to figure out as well.
I'm thankful I'm not going to class anymore, because I would not have the energy to do eight hour shifts during the week while still attending school at 8:30am every day.
I'm planning a couple trips to Montreal within a month and I'm pretty excited for that. I kind of rambled about all the plans I had in the previous post, out of pure excitement. I emailed my parents soon after I published that post, and re-read the next day. Talk about embarrassing.
But none the less, it's all coming up so fast and I need to make sure I'll have enough time to do everything I need to do.

Anyway, I'm going to go look at some more lenses, maybe watch some more Anime. I don't think I'll be getting out of bed for awhile. Have a good day :)
Introducing Nikon 1 – A Breakthrough in Technology and Design
Introducing Nikon 1 – A Breakthrough in Technology and Design

Saturday, 22 October 2011


OKAY. I am reaaaaally excited for the next couple months and into 2012!
So, in a little less then a month (27days or something), I'm going to an Anime convention in Ottawa with one of my extremely good friends. Now,  I was supposed to go see my best friend that weekend (the 18th of November) but him and I have always been HORRIBLE at keeping friends and I decided to kill two birds with one stone.
In February, they're holding another one (different group) in Guelph, which just so happens to be where my best friend goes to school :) Now, this happens to fall on the 25th of Feb.
The night before, (24th), my friend and I are going to see Simple Plan, live. I know, I know. Simple Plan, really? But I grew up on them - they helped me through a lot of bullshit back in elementary school and their new stuff is actually decent!
Either way, I'm really stoked, because I also have an Open House on the 3rd for the College I'm applying for and I can start getting everything I need together.
Also, I'm trying to convince my boss to put me on full time 2-10 closes (Sunday to Thursday) so I can make 40 hours a week and get MAD STACKS because I am going to be spending so much in the next couple months. I've also decided to buckle down and get school done, so on Monday I'm going in to do a couple test and get my next unit so I can work on that.
I'm taking the first week off in November so I can concentrate on everything I need to focus on, maybe get all dressed up and go have a little photoshoot with a couple friends, who knows. But right now, I'm just really excited and pumped up for life! It feels good, considering I've been feeling like shit lately and it's been starting to wear me down a huge amount.
And here I am, rambling, but no one reads this anyway so I might as well have fun :) I also ordered a bunch of stuff online, so I'm just waiting for all of that to come in. It is just great right now, I am so happy. Feels good. Looking forward to some family time tomorrow, too! Maybe I'll bring my camera and take some great shots!
Anyway, I am off to bed.
Talk to you later :)

"There was fire in those eyes."
Fullmetal Alchemist - Edward and Alfonse Elric <3

Thursday, 20 October 2011


You know what I find funny? The irony behind "Emergency Room". Unless you have a bone sticking out of you, or you're holding on for dear life, or you know, have come in an ambulance, you aren't really in any real emergency. I went to the Civic yesterday because I felt like knives were stabbing me and things were trying to escape my stomach. I then waited seven hours for test results and to be poked and prodded and looked at... only to find out that nothing was actually wrong with me and I should just sleep it off. NOW, usually, I wouldn't mind. Usually, I would just sleep it off. But this has been going on since before the summer, and I don't usually complain. I hate doctors, and I especially hate hospitals, so for me to be begging to be taken to one, just to have them say "You're fine." is kind of like a slap in the face.
And I get it, I do, they can only do so much at 6am, and I was getting ridiculously tired of waiting around and just, in general, but my point is, it shouldn't have taken them seven hours to figure it out. And again, I get it, short staffed, mid-night shifts, some girl was fucked on coke and another came in an ambulance - so obviously their priorities are there... but they could have at least mentioned, "Hey, something came up, you MIGHT be here for a little while longer then expected."
Anyway, I got home around seven this morning, made my mom stop off at Mcdonalds because giving blood makes me hungry and dizzy and then came home and crashed.
I still feel like total shit, and I still want to rip my stomach open so whatever's inside doesn't do it for me, but I guess the good news is, nothing's infected, and my liver and all that jazz are still in good condition.
That's my rant for now, I'll probably write later when I don't feel like death, but we shall see.

Sunday, 9 October 2011


You know what really pisses me off? When you're sitting at an erena, and people are trying to get by you and you DON'T STAND UP. Holy fuck. It takes two seconds to stand up, and let them walk by, instead of having them trip over your stupid legs and bags and whatever else you might have.
Last night, I went out with a couple friends to see the Cirque Du Soliel/Micheal Jackson Immortal Tour at the Scotia Bank Place in Kanata. A couple rows below us, an old man was trying to get back to his seat. Instead of the people getting up and standing, the poor man almost fell over the row, into the next one. It was horrible!
Just take the two seconds to stand up and everyone will then be able to enjoy the show in peace. Yes, it gets annoying, I'll admit, but it's better then having to deal with an accidental death because someone was too fucking lazy.

Anyway, that's that.
The show itself was amazing. They really did a great job, and even I was impressed and gained a little bit more respect for Micheal. The acts were outstanding, the dancing was wonderful, and even the music belted out everywhere. It was a great show, and they did a fantastic job. I'm glad I got to witness it.

Micheal Jackson had swag.

Thursday, 6 October 2011


Last night, October 5th, 2011, one of my best friends dad passed away due to a long battle with cancer. It was heartbreaking for the entire family, as well as close friends that knew him. I even found myself crying, due to the loss of someone who once had been around.

Casey Krzyzanowski, you were a great man and father. You were loved by so many people, myself included. I can't even begin to imagine the pain you felt while you battled for your life. I can't begin to imagine the pain your family, Zosia especially must be feeling right now, but I know and so do they, that you loved them all very much. You're in a better place now, looking down on your babies. Please remember that you died with dignity, and that your children, Sus and everyone who was close enough to know you, are extremely proud of you.
You will be missed, every minute, every day.
We all love you so much; hope you're having fun up wherever you are.
Rest In Peace

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Forbidden love

This is what I was watching last night, or better yet, till 4 o'clock this morning. It's about three guys that end up dealing with the fact that they're in love... with guys. It's the first time I've ever seen an Anime based on two guys being in love, and it caught my eye. I have a lot of gay friends, whom I love dearly, and it was kind of cool to see it  into something I love even more!
Usually, Animes and Mangas show girls being sexual with each other - as most viewers and readers are guys, and it's a guys fantasy. However, this show is more then just sex, and in fact, shows little sexual content aside from kissing. This is truly based on emotions of love and fear and how they deal with being in love with a man, because to them it isn't normal. It's stated many times "And he's a guy" as if it's a bad thing!
I found it rather amusing and heartwarming, as I watched their lives intertwine and come together and thought I'd share it :)
Anyway, I am off to work for now! Eight hour shifts are just THE best. (Praying for that Second Cup job!)
Talk to you later!

Tuesday, 4 October 2011

October 4, 2011

This is my baby, Buttons.
Today, I managed to finally get a nice picture of him! He doesn't usually enjoy having his photo taken, probably because of the flash, or he's asleep. He's my best friend and I love him bunches (&oats).
Today was a good day, went shopping and got myself a new blazer for my interview on Wednesday. Hopefully it's byebye Mcdonalds, hello Second Cup!

I had a great heart to heart with one of my best friends, one that was needed and it made me think a lot about life and how much people change over the course of their years. It makes me happy that somewhere along the road, I decided I wasn't going to live the way I was anymore, and I changed. It made me realize how great-full I am to have the people I have in my life, because without them, I wouldn't be able to get up every day and do the things I need to do.
Today was a good day, and tonight I shall sleep with a smile.

Monday, 3 October 2011

Gotta catch 'em all.

 This is my life, always and forever.

Manic Mondays

So today kind of put me on edge.
It was emotionally stressful, and physically draining, dealing with an epileptic brother (whom I love loads and loads), but I managed to pull through and get my day done. It was a good end, Starbucks and good friends. This week has high hopes, and I'm excited to see what it brings!
Tomorrow is a new day and I'm ready to conquer it.

Hi there

I'm Tara, otherwise known as Tarawr, or any other crazy nickname you can think of! I decided to start this blog as a good way to get my photography up and running. I'm still currently in high school, but I plan on going to college for a Photography course.
I don't really know what I'm supposed to do here, but I feel as if it'll help me a lot. I love to write, and often find myself writing in a Journal type style most days, so maybe this will become a substitute for that, as well! We shall see.
But for now, I should probably go get ready - the rain is making me feel gross, but the day is still in full bloom.
Talk to you soon!